I stopped temping at 11DPO last cycle because my temp went down and I immediately thought "that's it, we're out--again." I had a complete meltdown to OH (who was absolutely beautiful and supporting) followed by a 5 day horrendous depression when AF arrived. I wasn't eating, talking or showing any kind of emotion, it's like I was stuck in a bad dream and no one could wake me up. Failing took such a great tole on me and now it's time to try again and I completely lack the motivation to do it. I'm using every bit of willpower I have to temp, monitor cp/cm and use opks starting tomorrow. I took my temp this morning, to try easing myself back into it. I know women have been ttc for years and it makes me complaining feel a little petty, but OH and I have wanted a baby since May 2014, we only started doing all this monitoring this past May. My cycles are incredibly irregular, I never know when I'll O or when AF will arrive. It's just exhausting. I don't know how to pull together the strength to keep doing this. How do you all stay positive and optimistic after AF each month?