Hi ladies ...
A lady contacted me by PM (private message) a few days ago - her username is 'scared'. We have corresponded a little, and I encouraged her to post her question on the board in order to gain more balanced advice (ie, not just from myself), and offered to copy our correspondence on here for her. She agreed, and so if you can offer advice to 'scared' about her situation, please click 'reply' below, and I'll also let her know that the topic is now live so that she may join in.
Many thanks,
Laura
A lady contacted me by PM (private message) a few days ago - her username is 'scared'. We have corresponded a little, and I encouraged her to post her question on the board in order to gain more balanced advice (ie, not just from myself), and offered to copy our correspondence on here for her. She agreed, and so if you can offer advice to 'scared' about her situation, please click 'reply' below, and I'll also let her know that the topic is now live so that she may join in.
Many thanks,
Laura
Dear LauraB,
I have never been on a discussion board before. it appeared that you welcomed a private message, so i hope i am not imposing on you. i am dealing with a dilemna that i currently have no answers to.
i am pregant. my husband and i had been planning to get pregnant, and sadly and unbelievably, he died. i am grief stricken. and i feel so sad for him that he will not be here to live and enjoy our baby.
since i was not yet pregnant when he died, i went thru the ivf procedure.
i did this to honor him. when i go to tell people we know, however, i would have to lie and say i was 9 more weeks pregnant than i actually am. i have grown step children, and i want them if they so choose to be a part of their father's child's life.
with people i have met after my beloved husband died. i can tell them he died later than he actually did. but with the family, obviously i cannot do that. i am the most honest person in the world, but i am determined that this child will have my husband as her father, and she will learn what a wonderful father he is.
you probably do not have any answers for me, but i am writing this in the librar, where i am using their computer, and i am crying because i am so desparately looking for answers. if i am imposing on you, i do apologize.
thank you so much for taking the time and energy to read this and hopefully to respond. i do appreciate it, more than you will ever know.
Hi there,
Please do not think you are imposing, you are not, and I thank you for contacting me. I am truly sorry to hear about the loss of your husband, and the difficult thoughts that you are now trying to resolve.
I am sure you will know that the most important thing now is that you remain strong for your unborn baby. Although, in all honesty, it does sound like you are being strong already, in that you have already decided what you will tell people, both those who know you and those who don't. Presumably you will tell the family that you delivered early? If you are firm in that decision, then you are already on the road to concentrating on the most important aspect, giving love, support and happiness to your new child.
I would strongly encourage you to post on the board, as there are lots of lovely ladies there who will be able to offer you more advice and encouragement. As you will know, the board is totally anonymous and the only information you need to give is your username - you do not have to say where you live, or anything else.
I wish you every happiness for the future with your baby, I am sure your concerns about what to tell people will ease even more, once s/he is in your arms. But please do consider posting on the board as well, and I'm sure you'll find a very warm welcome there.
Best wishes,
LauraB
Dear LauraB,
What a thoughtful and considerate person you are to have responded to me in the way you did. I have had absolutely no one at all to talk to about this, so I was so deeply touched that you would take the time and energy to answer me.
Laura, unfortunately, I do not have any answers at all. There exists a full 10 week gap. So when I go to tell my husband's children, I will have to say I am 22 weeks pregnant, instead of being truthfully 12 weeks pregnant. Also, the baby obviously can not be born 10 weeks early!!!
Thus, the baby will have two birthdates, the one I make up to coincide with the earlier date and the one that is actual. How would this work for the baby if she was to have two birthdates? I could make her birthdate early, but i think throughout life one need a birthdate for records [unless I could lie on the birth certificate, which I don't think I would be able to do]. Do you know anything about birth certificates?? Will I have any trouble putting my husband as the father even though the dates won't make sense?? I want the kids to accept their father's child. [of course, i guess you realize that I had to go to a sperm bank, so if they ever insisted on a dna... ]
I am so stressed about this, and I know that I must find a way to limit my stress. I am older, so it is doubly important. The baby's well being is the most important thing of all, and I do know that!!! This is so very important to me, and yet I am inherently so honest. I know I have to lie, but if i have to go against what I believe [in order to honor my husband], i want to AT LEAST do it in a way that WORKS!!! So, by any change, do you have any creative ideas at all for my dilemna????
Laura, how is it that you are at this cite? Are you also pregnant? Thank you again for assuring me that I am not imposing. If I ever am, please do let me know. thank you so much for being there for me.
me
[alias scared]
Hi again,
Thanks for getting in touch again. As mentioned previously, I think it would be a very good idea for you to post this on the forum, because then you will receive help and advice from a number of ladies, and not just one. Please be assured that it is not because I don't want to answer - I very much want to help, and with that in mind I think you will gain much more benefit from receiving a variety of replies, and not just one.
Would you like me to create the topic for you? I can copy and paste the correspondence that we have had, and then ask ladies to continue from there. You can also join in from that point if you would like to, under your anonymous alias of 'scared' - nobody will know who you are.
I want you to get help on here, and I believe that would be the best way to go for you.
Regarding myself, I started the site because I do have a personal interest in pregnancy, though I am not (as yet!) pregnant myself.
Please do bear in mind what I have suggested, you need all the help you can get and if you cannot talk to anybody in real life about it, then this could just be the way to go. I hope you agree.
Best wishes,
Laura
dear laura.
thanks for your response. and yes, i will take you up on your generous offer to create the post, especially since i was not able to keep a copy of my previous 2 e-mails [even though i very much wanted to].
your point is well taken...maybe i will be able to get more than one answer! but laura, you adroitly managed not to provide that "one" answer. i'd love to hear your HONEST thoughts on what i have spelled out to you!!!
thank you for your sensitivity and consideration. you are terrific!
scared