I've kept my positive wall up for so long, and was doing rly weel, focusing on everything good. Work xmas do last night just ruined everything and sent me on a meltdown. I've been crying since 3am when i got in to bed. Father of the baby was there, and we get on and are trying to work out a way of making things ok, but my mum, dad & aunti were having their only office party and stared Father of bab out ALL NIGHT, giving daggers and evils until my mum & dad went home. Me and FOB were having a chat and along comes my aunty to make things exremelly awkward... kicked off and caused a scene! WELL DONE MATURE AUNTIE!!!! doing my mum's dirty work. Now i feel because i kept my mouth shut for the sake of baby, didn't want to get worked up, it's failed miserably.. now i've waster 18 hours of the day stressing and wishing i could tell everyone to butt out and f**K off... I'm stubborn and say what i think usually, don't really mind saying my peace in an argument, but have turned into a shrinking violet for sake of baby. letting everyone hopefully get things off their chest and be done. but its lingering on and people are still bitter... IVE JUST HAD ENOUGH!!! It's killing me not being able to scream at everyone but i don't want to be this stressed being silent about it all.... SORRY FOR THE RANT, i jus thought writing it down may make me feel like i've got something off my chest!!..... unfortunatley if you've read this far, you've been my target to offload on and i apolagize!