Hi
Feel like no one around me understands what Im going through and was hoping someone on here has experienced something similar maybe. I am a single mother with a 6 year old daughter but I have always been desperate for a second child, I left my ex 2 years ago, shortly after, I found out I was pregnant it was a shock but then I was happy that at least my 2 children would have the same dad, a week after finding out I had a miscarriage I was upset but accepted that it wasnt the best situation and it just wasnt meant to be. 2 years later at the end of August this year I stupidly had a drunken one stand (literally the first time I had slept with anyone in 2 years) I took the morning after pill but a week and a half later got a positive pregnancy test, at first I was devastated, I had just started my dream job and the father was a complete stranger but on the plus side I would have my much longed for second child, as at 37 years of age I had given up hope and also after only sleeping with someone once and at my age and after taking the morning after pill it felt like it was meant to be. I had some bleeding so at 6 weeks went for a scan and saw the heartbeat so accepted that this was really happening and in my head, as you do, made plans for the future. The father took the news well and I started to be excited. At when I thought I was about 9 and a half weeks I had some light bleeding again so booked a scan where I was told my baby had died at 7 and a half weeks. Im so devastated because I feel like this is my second miscarriage but also because Im single Ive no partner going through it with me and also cant try again like most people this happens to. Also had to go through being told the news on my own and having the miscarriage on my own whilst trying to act normal for my little girl. I know people think you are lucky to have one but when you desperate to have another its hard and I feel being 37 and single theres no chance because I wouldnt have a one night stand again. Just feel devastated and like nobody around me understands what Im going through. Can anyone relate? X
Feel like no one around me understands what Im going through and was hoping someone on here has experienced something similar maybe. I am a single mother with a 6 year old daughter but I have always been desperate for a second child, I left my ex 2 years ago, shortly after, I found out I was pregnant it was a shock but then I was happy that at least my 2 children would have the same dad, a week after finding out I had a miscarriage I was upset but accepted that it wasnt the best situation and it just wasnt meant to be. 2 years later at the end of August this year I stupidly had a drunken one stand (literally the first time I had slept with anyone in 2 years) I took the morning after pill but a week and a half later got a positive pregnancy test, at first I was devastated, I had just started my dream job and the father was a complete stranger but on the plus side I would have my much longed for second child, as at 37 years of age I had given up hope and also after only sleeping with someone once and at my age and after taking the morning after pill it felt like it was meant to be. I had some bleeding so at 6 weeks went for a scan and saw the heartbeat so accepted that this was really happening and in my head, as you do, made plans for the future. The father took the news well and I started to be excited. At when I thought I was about 9 and a half weeks I had some light bleeding again so booked a scan where I was told my baby had died at 7 and a half weeks. Im so devastated because I feel like this is my second miscarriage but also because Im single Ive no partner going through it with me and also cant try again like most people this happens to. Also had to go through being told the news on my own and having the miscarriage on my own whilst trying to act normal for my little girl. I know people think you are lucky to have one but when you desperate to have another its hard and I feel being 37 and single theres no chance because I wouldnt have a one night stand again. Just feel devastated and like nobody around me understands what Im going through. Can anyone relate? X
