It's month 18 of TTC. We got married in 2013 and immediately bought a 4 bedroom house (we are lucky house prices are so low where we live so we were able to afford it). I've been doing a spring clean and it's really hit home how we have 3 empty bedrooms. When we got the keys we were certain we were going to have 2 children who would grow up here and we would need the space but I keep the 'spare' bedroom doors shut all the time as it is so upsetting that we can't use them. I'm having a little cry about it and then hopefully I will be able to keep going with the rest of the cleaning. I would offer someone to rent to rooms while they are empty but they aren't very big and I'm awful at keeping the house tidy and there's always that little voice in my head. that says 'what if you will need the room in 9 months time'. I've inherited a bit of money from my gran and I've saved it in case we need IVF as I know she would have wanted us to use it for that if we needed to. But I would really rather conceive naturally and I am not good with doctors or needles etc. I know I am a very lucky girl in so many ways and I am appreciative of that, but it's not helping stop me crying right now.