Ok here goes...! My husband and I have been together for 10 years and married for nearly 5. We have two daughters aged 4 and 19 months. I honestly deep down believe that our relationship and marriage has run its course. I know this sounds awful but I just don't feel anything for him anymore and I know exactly when this started to happen. My husband is obsessed with football, he always has been. When our eldest was born (she was literally 2 weeks old) he decided to take an opportunity to manage an under 13s football team. I was a bit worried about how much time it take up as he works full time as it is and he wouldn't be paid for the football but he assured me that it would be fine. Well to cut a long story short I never saw him and neither did my daughter. He worked all week including Saturday and would then spend all day Sunday at football matches. Then when my daughter was 18 months old I found out I was pregnant again. I had a scan at 10 weeks and all was fine but another scan at what should have been 13 weeks confirmed a mmc. I was inconsolable and heartbroken. We left the hospital and had been told to decide how to manage the miscarriage. I had thought we would go home to talk, grieve etc but he said that he had to get to football training and left half an hour after we'd just been told our baby was dead. I fell pregnant again straight away with our second daughter, but the morning I went in to labour was a Sunday ..... Football day. So as I was in labour at home, off he went leaving me in a lot of pain and having to look after our other daughter. He said he would be back after the match and if anything happened in the meantime to call him. I managed to hold out until he got back and our daughter was born within half an hour of making it to the hospital. I know in my heart that was the beginning of the end for me and over the last 19 months I have not wanted him anywhere near me. He's still doing the football so luckily I don't see a lot of him but can't help but think life would be a lot better for me and the girls if we just went our separate ways? I can't get past what he did with the miscarriage and when my daughter was born. Do you think I'm stupid for not forgiving him for that? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. So sorry for the long post!