Hoping I am not alone with this one.
I was roughly around 7 weeks on Monday. As per my last post I have really been struggling with nausea and completely losing my appetite, now at a point where I cant or dont want to get out of bed, and I am losing weight.
Despite sickness this is supposed to be the happiest time of me and my boyfriends life. But the sickness and how overwhelming it has been so far has left me feeling quite the opposite. I dont want to see anyone, I know Ill feel to crappy so Ive been cancelling all my plans. I genuinely dont want to get out of bed, Ive been off this week and so far managed to make it to my mums and then ASDA and it was the most exhausting day of my life and tried not to throw up on the way home. I keep having dreams about holding my baby and its head falling off or crumbling in my hands like a bath bomb. Either that or I cant sleep at all.
Im making my boyfriend miserable because even when Im not asleep Im not talking, laughing smiling, I just lie there with a film on to drown out how quiet Im being. Its left him feeling unwanted and unloved and its upsetting me, but I feel so far down a hole.
Whats worse is I know how bad it is... Im just to tired to do anything about it.
I was roughly around 7 weeks on Monday. As per my last post I have really been struggling with nausea and completely losing my appetite, now at a point where I cant or dont want to get out of bed, and I am losing weight.
Despite sickness this is supposed to be the happiest time of me and my boyfriends life. But the sickness and how overwhelming it has been so far has left me feeling quite the opposite. I dont want to see anyone, I know Ill feel to crappy so Ive been cancelling all my plans. I genuinely dont want to get out of bed, Ive been off this week and so far managed to make it to my mums and then ASDA and it was the most exhausting day of my life and tried not to throw up on the way home. I keep having dreams about holding my baby and its head falling off or crumbling in my hands like a bath bomb. Either that or I cant sleep at all.
Im making my boyfriend miserable because even when Im not asleep Im not talking, laughing smiling, I just lie there with a film on to drown out how quiet Im being. Its left him feeling unwanted and unloved and its upsetting me, but I feel so far down a hole.
Whats worse is I know how bad it is... Im just to tired to do anything about it.