Sigh.....Just got AF again. Around 4 days late this month, so long enough for me to start getting excited and imagining every weird ache, twinge and bulge is actually PG related rather than PMT! Is there anyway of TTC without turning into a complete loonie!? Just had my 32nd birthday last week which I found a real downer. I didn't imagine that I would get to this age and be childless. None of this particularly helped by my boss saying that he thought someone else had better management skills than me "because at your age she'd had 4 children". Apparently, having children opens you up to all sorts of interesting challenges. REALLY?! I'd like to bloomin well find out!!! (Hey! I have my period, I am entitled to get a bit stroppy) Just out of interest, does anyone else out there hide the fact that they want children at work? My colleagues think of me as a bit of a child hater, career bitch. I tend to avoid all those situations where people with children trade stories on how little Johnnie said his first words or worse... when they bring them in and pass them round to be cuddled I just find the whole thing terribly painful because it feels like a big reminder of what I don't have. If I ever do get PG, everyone there will be completely gobsmacked and will probably think I had an accident. At that point, I think I will point out that, actually I first started trying when I was 26 (small matter of a divorce in between, so it's not quite as bad as it seems). Thank God for this forum. At least I can have a completely self-indulgent, self-pitying, period-induced rant and although you'll probably all be really glad you don't have to ever meet me, at least you might identify with some of it! Plus it means my wonderful B/F doesn't get subjected to it and is therefore more inclined towards the BD needed for next months go!! I feel a lot better now. Thank you for reading the ravings of a (slightly) mad woman.