Today is exactly one year since I lost my second little angel. It has been a very hard day, in fact, I was so scared of the same thing happening again that my hubby and I did not catch our flight with the rest of the family to Spain this morning. I was anxious about the effect of the flight on my baby and was worried that history would repeat itself. I know it sounds mental, especially as this little one thriving now, but the memory of the pain of last year just made me panic. OH and I had lots of tears, but I have decided to be brave. We have booked some flights for tomorrow morning and we will go out and meet the family. I am just amazed how grief from one year ago can still effect me so much, especially when I have a beautiful new life growing inside of me.