ScotchEgg
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I feel like such a nonce.
Every so often, Ive managed to convince myself I was pregnant despite all the evidence to the contrary. Historically when not wanting to get pregnant and recently the other way around.
Ive had this niggle in my head because this cycle is all over the shop. After five consecutive cycles of similar length, I dont think Ive ovulated when I thought I would. My bodys not been itself, my last period was longer and heavier than normal (but only a little) and Ive been constantly exhausted. My sleep issues (long term, started by a family death) have returned and all put together Ive felt miserable for the last couple of weeks where Im normally a bright person. I didnt notice at first, but people ask me daily if Im ok and tell me Im very quiet.
ANYWAY
So I convinced myself last night that maybe I was pregnant. I was convinced I had caught last month I wasnt symptom spotting, I hadnt found you guys yet, I didnt know what to look for I was sure I felt different. Then the witch came two days earlier than expected which I thought was a good sign for my long cycles coming down a bit further so I hadnt tested.
So I hadnt had the negative, so my stupid brain told me maybe you are and something weird happened to your body and thats why youre not seeing ovulation signs.
So I tested. The first test Id done since weve started trying. Wed cleaned out the bathroom at the weekend and found several really old ones and chucked them all in a box so I thought I might as well. Would stop the niggle and let me get on with focussing on this cycle. Plus one of them goes out of date soon so itd be criminal not to. And theres a line in both boxes. And Im numb with shock. I didnt expect it to be positive, I was just easing my mind. Could it really be that I DID have a period when pregnant? Even if I did ovulate when Id expected to, I wouldnt get a positive by now from this cycle.
So I run to the supermarket, pick up one of those digital ones that says how far along (maybe Ive had 2 periods and actually caught in the first cycle), shaking and not believing it could be true. I get home and manage to squeeze out a tiny bit of wee and do the test. I feel sick waiting and am only half shocked when it says not pregnant.
I google the tests and it turns out that the first wasnt positive. Id thrown away the instruction leaflet when wed put them all in a box thinking they were all the same. This one needed a cross and a line. I feel like an idiot. Wasted a tenner on a second opinion when I just misread the first one.
It was all funny and surreal and I cant really believe it happened today...but after a (much better) nights sleep (maybe it did do what it was meant to do) Im starting to see the funny side so I thought Id tell you all the story...
Every so often, Ive managed to convince myself I was pregnant despite all the evidence to the contrary. Historically when not wanting to get pregnant and recently the other way around.
Ive had this niggle in my head because this cycle is all over the shop. After five consecutive cycles of similar length, I dont think Ive ovulated when I thought I would. My bodys not been itself, my last period was longer and heavier than normal (but only a little) and Ive been constantly exhausted. My sleep issues (long term, started by a family death) have returned and all put together Ive felt miserable for the last couple of weeks where Im normally a bright person. I didnt notice at first, but people ask me daily if Im ok and tell me Im very quiet.
ANYWAY
So I convinced myself last night that maybe I was pregnant. I was convinced I had caught last month I wasnt symptom spotting, I hadnt found you guys yet, I didnt know what to look for I was sure I felt different. Then the witch came two days earlier than expected which I thought was a good sign for my long cycles coming down a bit further so I hadnt tested.
So I hadnt had the negative, so my stupid brain told me maybe you are and something weird happened to your body and thats why youre not seeing ovulation signs.
So I tested. The first test Id done since weve started trying. Wed cleaned out the bathroom at the weekend and found several really old ones and chucked them all in a box so I thought I might as well. Would stop the niggle and let me get on with focussing on this cycle. Plus one of them goes out of date soon so itd be criminal not to. And theres a line in both boxes. And Im numb with shock. I didnt expect it to be positive, I was just easing my mind. Could it really be that I DID have a period when pregnant? Even if I did ovulate when Id expected to, I wouldnt get a positive by now from this cycle.
So I run to the supermarket, pick up one of those digital ones that says how far along (maybe Ive had 2 periods and actually caught in the first cycle), shaking and not believing it could be true. I get home and manage to squeeze out a tiny bit of wee and do the test. I feel sick waiting and am only half shocked when it says not pregnant.
I google the tests and it turns out that the first wasnt positive. Id thrown away the instruction leaflet when wed put them all in a box thinking they were all the same. This one needed a cross and a line. I feel like an idiot. Wasted a tenner on a second opinion when I just misread the first one.
It was all funny and surreal and I cant really believe it happened today...but after a (much better) nights sleep (maybe it did do what it was meant to do) Im starting to see the funny side so I thought Id tell you all the story...
poor u
