xMillie
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Feeling a bit fed up so I’m sure this will turn into more of a bit of a rant and nothing anyone will want to actually read, so feel free to click off now. I just need to write something somewhere.
January is speeding away fast.. so of course it keeps hitting me that this March will mark 6 years ttc and there is only 1-2 more cycles left before we start heading for 7 years ttc..
Anyone still on this site still trying after 6 years?
Think we all need a miracle!!
TTC has and continues to be an incredibly lonely place, I don’t feel like I belong on the TTC threads here as most users are new or haven’t been trying that long and will likely get a bfp soon anyway so I kinda don’t want to be surrounded by those who just need to look at their partner and get pregnant after 1 or 2 cycles of trying.
I’m tired of my cycles being whacky when they never used to be. I often use OPKs, unless I forget or just lose track of what CD I am. They’re great for working out when my period is due! Not much else. My cycles now seem to be anywhere from 26 - 32 days I guess? So that’s flipping great. None of my period apps can predict correctly anymore as my cycles are jumping all over the place.
Sex, DTD, BDing.. whatever you want to call it.. is horrible when you have to do it because of ovulation. Can’t really say you’re trying unless you’re ‘trying’ right? Yeah sometimes it just happens because you both want it but other times it’s like ‘Its time, I guess we better get the sperm in there’.
Me and Hubby are both turning 30 this year.. in the next 7-8 months. So no. Neither of us will become a parent before we hit 30. After starting TTC almost 6 years ago this was something we both wanted.. to be parents before 30. I know it’s just a number.. and plenty of people get pregnant in their 30s but it’s hard to even imagine it ever happening past 30 after ttc so long.
Before we know it July will be here and it would have been 2 years since we first ever got pregnant.. feel so desperate.
Depression is an on and off thing with me. Mostly on. I haven’t bothered going to a doctor because it’s not like they can give me a baby to fill up this freakin hole in my heart. Throw me pills or counselling, which I’m not sure would help either.
I guess all we can do is keep trying and hope one day a miracle will happen?
Hubby has suggested IVF again but on paper neither of us have any issues and we once conceived without help. The idea of it just feels like too much, it’s a ‘chance’ of being pregnant if they transfer a fertilised embryo back so of course it’s easy to get your hopes up and notice every cramp, niggle or whatever. I’m not sure I want to put myself through that for potentially nothing as well.
January is speeding away fast.. so of course it keeps hitting me that this March will mark 6 years ttc and there is only 1-2 more cycles left before we start heading for 7 years ttc..
Anyone still on this site still trying after 6 years?
Think we all need a miracle!!
TTC has and continues to be an incredibly lonely place, I don’t feel like I belong on the TTC threads here as most users are new or haven’t been trying that long and will likely get a bfp soon anyway so I kinda don’t want to be surrounded by those who just need to look at their partner and get pregnant after 1 or 2 cycles of trying.
I’m tired of my cycles being whacky when they never used to be. I often use OPKs, unless I forget or just lose track of what CD I am. They’re great for working out when my period is due! Not much else. My cycles now seem to be anywhere from 26 - 32 days I guess? So that’s flipping great. None of my period apps can predict correctly anymore as my cycles are jumping all over the place.
Sex, DTD, BDing.. whatever you want to call it.. is horrible when you have to do it because of ovulation. Can’t really say you’re trying unless you’re ‘trying’ right? Yeah sometimes it just happens because you both want it but other times it’s like ‘Its time, I guess we better get the sperm in there’.
Me and Hubby are both turning 30 this year.. in the next 7-8 months. So no. Neither of us will become a parent before we hit 30. After starting TTC almost 6 years ago this was something we both wanted.. to be parents before 30. I know it’s just a number.. and plenty of people get pregnant in their 30s but it’s hard to even imagine it ever happening past 30 after ttc so long.
Before we know it July will be here and it would have been 2 years since we first ever got pregnant.. feel so desperate.
Depression is an on and off thing with me. Mostly on. I haven’t bothered going to a doctor because it’s not like they can give me a baby to fill up this freakin hole in my heart. Throw me pills or counselling, which I’m not sure would help either.
I guess all we can do is keep trying and hope one day a miracle will happen?
Hubby has suggested IVF again but on paper neither of us have any issues and we once conceived without help. The idea of it just feels like too much, it’s a ‘chance’ of being pregnant if they transfer a fertilised embryo back so of course it’s easy to get your hopes up and notice every cramp, niggle or whatever. I’m not sure I want to put myself through that for potentially nothing as well.
xx
