Chazabell
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Girls I'm struggling! Everything feels like its too much
I'm still coming to terms with iui failing again (I feel stupid about feeling the way) I have a bald spot and thin hair from the hormones for iui which I am now self concious about. A stone has fallen out of my gorgeous engagement ring, friends are falling pregnant around me, which makes me angry at myself for not being ale to fall pregnant. My OH's job js no longer as secure as we once thought due to bedroom tax killing people in our area...they cant afford to decorate! And on top of that (might be small to you, big to me) my stepdad is dying in hospital. He is an alcoholic who suffered a stroke last year and has chronic liver failure, I don't know what I feel. He is the father to my baby sister and acted like a father to me. But he also beat my mum, and bullied my middle sister and stole from his own daughter. Last time I saw him was when I ran to lock the door after he left and called police 5 years ago. He as even beaten my grandad. I feel terrible he as got this bad, but also think he deserves it. I want to say goodbye and thanks for the good he did before the alcohol took him, but also don't want to see him in the yellow bloated state he is. I know seeing me would hurt him because he was heart broken when my middle sister visited. And my Mum says he looks scared. My mum divorced him 3 years ago and is now in a new relationship. And this news is killing her as she has to try and help my sister deal with it
Everything has just landed on me at once!!!!!!!!
Just needed to rant!!! xxx
I'm still coming to terms with iui failing again (I feel stupid about feeling the way) I have a bald spot and thin hair from the hormones for iui which I am now self concious about. A stone has fallen out of my gorgeous engagement ring, friends are falling pregnant around me, which makes me angry at myself for not being ale to fall pregnant. My OH's job js no longer as secure as we once thought due to bedroom tax killing people in our area...they cant afford to decorate! And on top of that (might be small to you, big to me) my stepdad is dying in hospital. He is an alcoholic who suffered a stroke last year and has chronic liver failure, I don't know what I feel. He is the father to my baby sister and acted like a father to me. But he also beat my mum, and bullied my middle sister and stole from his own daughter. Last time I saw him was when I ran to lock the door after he left and called police 5 years ago. He as even beaten my grandad. I feel terrible he as got this bad, but also think he deserves it. I want to say goodbye and thanks for the good he did before the alcohol took him, but also don't want to see him in the yellow bloated state he is. I know seeing me would hurt him because he was heart broken when my middle sister visited. And my Mum says he looks scared. My mum divorced him 3 years ago and is now in a new relationship. And this news is killing her as she has to try and help my sister deal with it
Everything has just landed on me at once!!!!!!!!
Just needed to rant!!! xxx