A waw you were on the pill. No wonder it's such a huge shock! You'll find your feet I'm sure. It will be tough but also try and think of the benefits such as the close bond they'll all have, the fact they will be at similar stages (what I mean by this is I have a bigger gap so the youngest is passed from pillar to post with all the older twos after school activities), you'll have all the necessary baby stuff etc. there's pros and cons to all age gaps. How are your pregnancies? Just take as much help as people offer! Xxx