valentine said:
As explained above, I don't feel that I give DD as much time as she deserves now as I'm so tired with this pregnancy and her needs have sometimes had to be sidelined so I can have a nap or whatever. On the positive side though, I love the idea of a close age gap and know it'll all be worth it in the long run when my two children are close and play together.
Valentine Xxx
Funny..I was just thinking this today. Totally agree with Valentine. I am getting so tired in the day with this pregnancy that its a struggle at times with my 1 year old! My parents are proving to be very handy babysitters so I can get a well needed kip in the day. It does not help if you have bad morning sickess and/or spd (and yep I have both!) on top of the tiredness.
With my first pregnancy I rememeber the excitement of reading baby articles, magazines, books, catalogues..planning the nursery.. talking and singing to my bump... but Im so busy or tired now to do that or just feel less of the need to read stuff as its not new to me anymore. Im not beating myself up about it though or letting myself feel guilty as I know what counts is the love in my heart for both of my babies....not my energy levels or my 'less-excited-when-something-isnt-new' personality.
For me, I guess having a 2nd baby puts things into perspective....its not about the clothes, the nursery, the sex of the baby, the latest baby accessories. Its just about knowing the baby's health is ok and knowing how to tend to its needs. Im much more 'practical-minded' this time round.
So on the positive ...
1) mentally, Im prepared for no 2. Its all fresh in my mind how to look after a newborn baby. It took me a while to learn about raising babies, as it does with every new mum. Ok I still dont know everything and each baby is different...but Im feeling more confident and 'practical' about looking after the needs of baby 2...which is better than how I felt with my first (a crying, tired, unsure amateur at times)
2) I look at my darling first son and feel so excited that God has blessed me with the chance to have two children. Feels that my life will be complete when I have them both in my arms.
3) My son Jacob, last week (when I was 21 weeks pregnant), kissed my tummy. He did this 3 times..without prompt or instruction from me or anyone. I was lying on the bed, airing my bump, when he crawled over and planted a soppy kiss on my tummy. It totally blew me away...the fact that he knows/could know about a baby inside me and he reacted like that. If i tell this to some people, they will think me mad...or think im seeing into things...or that it was a coincidence. But it happened, three different occasions, one time witnessed by someone else. When magic like that happens, its amazing.