1st Angelversary :(

Discussion in 'Coping with Miscarriage & Loss' started by Iwant3, Jun 26, 2013.

  1. Iwant3

    Iwant3 Well-Known Member

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    It's my 35th birthday today! but it is also the due date of the first baby I lost!

    I put a big happy birthday banner with balloons up as it is also the 3rd birthday of one of the little boys we look after - but everytime i see it I want to cry.

    DH kissed me this morning to say happy birthday and I started crying. Can't face opening my cards and pressies (keep thinking i should be opening baby stuff and congrats on the birth cards instead!)

    how to get through the day - i have to put on my pretend happy face for all the parents arriving soon.
     
  2. Delightedbunny

    Delightedbunny New Member

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    I had a MC on my 33 birthday, and then another one 6 months later on holiday, then had to face my 34 birthday, with not being pregnant and not having a baby. It is hard, and I remember waking up on my birthday thinking exactly the same. My OH had the sense to whisk me away to Edinburgh so everything was different, which helped. I can't really offer any words of wisdom because I know how tough it is, but you somehow just have to get through it, and tomorrow is another day. It does get easier, but if I am honest I was only better when I fell pregnant again, now just had a good 12 week scan. There is hope.... Take good care xxx
     
  3. lozzalozza

    lozzalozza Well-Known Member

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    Oh poor you, what a horrible day, I wish I could say something to make it easier. But the only thing I can think is that it's only 17 hrs till a new day xxx.
     
  4. Iwant3

    Iwant3 Well-Known Member

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    I did fall pregnant again and that one was due 22nd september! so should have been 7 month pregnant with that one too! I am CD4 so Af only just gone so that doesn't really help the matter does it!

    all I have done so far today is cry when i can and put a brave face on when I can't!
     
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    Aww Hun sending hugs and thinking if u x
     
  7. Lozzaste

    Lozzaste Well-Known Member

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    :-( It is so sad I know. I found it hard last month too but obviously it's not the same being your birthday.
    Thinking of you xx
     
  8. Balthazar1275

    Balthazar1275 Well-Known Member

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    It just sucks, no other word for it. I hope today passes quickly and you feel a bit better tomorrow. Everyone is allowed bad days, it's just part of being a mummy to angel babies. The pain never goes it just gets easier to deal with. Sending you lots of love and hugs xx

    Michelle x
     
  9. Browneyed Girl

    Browneyed Girl Well-Known Member

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    Sorry hun, it is just so so sad. Hope you manage to enjoy some part of your day xx


     
  10. Daley

    Daley Well-Known Member

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    Sending you a big hug Hun. Wishing you a happy birthday even though you don't want to celebrate it. Xxx
     

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